Life with Sensory Processing Disorder

Monday, March 24, 2014

Friday, March 21, 2014

See Through Autistic Eyes

What a difference two days of sunshine make! I am feeling better.

Someone in one of my Aspie groups posted this interesting video on experiencing Autism. While this is a girl with non-verbal Autism and I have verbal high functioning Autism Spectrum Disorder, much of this is spot on for me; her correcting her sister, the sensory bombardment (light, sound, movement), feeling like people are looking at you & hating eye contact, the frustration, not being heard, the anxiety...

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Meltdown Alert!

Sometimes I feel like I’m an alien from another planet and don’t belong here. I just don’t relate to people, I don’t understand social cues, I never know what is the “right” thing to do, what is too much or not enough. I am usually accepting and happy with myself and glad that I am different.

But sometimes, like today, my life is overwhelming: when I can’t sleep, I’m sick with allergies & possibly a touch of the flu, sensory issues are extremely troublesome, recent dental visit hurt & stressed me out, weather is dark & gloomy, and other things outside my control are extremely upsetting, I feel like I could cry for days. I feel like I want to have a meltdown and lie on the floor kicking my feet and screaming it isn’t fair, why me, how much do I have to endure!?

I really don’t want this blog to be a bitch fest, I hate complainers and complaining. I aim to be positive, informative, and helpful. I know everyone has bad days and they are normal, but mine seem to be magnified by 1 million. So for now I will allow myself this pity party and have myself a good cry, hug my dog, curl up in bed with a good book and a cup of tea, and spend quality time with my husband when he gets home and make tomorrow a better day.

If you suffer from SPD or any other ailment, I’m with ya. I feel your pain. I know your struggle. Life sucks sometimes. It does always get better. We just need to hang in there and count our blessings. If all else fails, do something to make someone else’s day better. How can you not feel good making someone else smile?

Monday, March 17, 2014

Lunar Effect

I have difficulty sleeping during the 4 or so days around a full moon. It isn't the light from a full moon as we close our light blocking curtains at night and the moon isn't always shining on my window. I don't always know when a full moon occurs, but I always wake up when the moon crests the top of our house and is over my bedroom. Our bedroom can be pitch black and I will wake up and tell my husband I bet it is a full moon or close to one. It never fails. It is quite irritating. The other night my allergies were bothering me so I took 2 Benadryl - which always knocks me out, and something else for sleep to guarantee a good nights sleep, and sure enough, come 4am, I am wide awake for no reason - don't have to use the restroom, no noise, no light. Tired, but wide awake. I open the curtains and look outside, sure enough an almost full moon above.

I've looked this up and there are studies that say the moon can affect our sleep, mood, and actions, and others that say it isn't possible. Well, I can say for certain it affects my sleep. I feel the moon, not sure how to explain it other than I can sense some light energy/buzzing. I'm not sure how to handle it because I am not a heavy sleeper to begin with and once awake have a hard time falling back asleep. I've taken sleeping pills, other meds, tried yoga, meditation, breathing exercises. In the past I've never kept track of moon cycles. I hate to think I will always be woken up during this time.